Last night I went to an event where Randy Clark of Global Awakening was speaking - powerful man of God. It is something I had been looking forward to and I could not wait to go. We got there me and my three friends and we were very excited. The place was packed, nonetheless we managed to get seats and join in the program.
All went well for me until it got to the time when Randy after praying that the Holy Spirit speak to us, encouraged those who felt that God had given them a word of knowledge for someone to come up and share and then pray for each other. As people shared and prayed for each other, I was suddenly enveloped with a heaviness on my spirit and I just could not seem to be able to pray and so I went and sat down - big mistake. So whilst others prayed for each other and God moved I was sitting down doing nothing I am ashamed to say. It felt so wrong but instead of fighting the heaviness I felt I let it envelop me.
Later as we went home my friends were talking about how awesome it had been and how God had touched them, a voice said in my head 'See what you missed. Should have prayed with the others. Now you will never know what you missed'. I knew right then that was the voice of the devil, he had just used his tactic of convincing me to do/not to something and then condemning me and laughing at me for having listened to Him. Yes, I felt very bad and knew that I should have known better and should not have listened to my flesh and feelings. The Word its self in Romans 8: 6 warns about setting one's mind on the flesh 'To set your mind on the flesh is death but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace'.
This morning God gently reminded that as His child no longer do I always operate by what I feel for doing so can leave the door open for the devil to come in and rob me of what He has in store for me and steal my joy. Thus my dance with God continues - a lesson learned, a gentle remainder from my Father makes me a little wiser and helps me dance more and more according to His tune, not mine.